It’s OK to be vulnerable.
I’m still trying to make peace with that statement. There are times when I think I am OK with being myself, but letting people, strangers, see me, at my worst…panic attacky, angry, whatever – going against what I consider the emotional and behavioral social grain… it’s really scary and it makes me feel really insecure. Today I had to leave somewhere because I couldn’t deal. On top of that, I wasn’t feeling well, was having an anxiety attack, and was completely embarrassed in front of other people.
You do what you have to do. You trust that people will understand. You take it easy, be gentle with yourself. And even if you don’t believe it, say to yourself: It’s OK. Because it is. You have more power than you think you do. And it’s beautiful.
I don’t want to post about it just yet but there’s some things I want to do. And I’m gonna do em. They are fun and exciting things (and scary, so I have been procrastinating).
So, I figure I should post about my happiness project and how it’s coming along. I’ve decided this second, that it should be called a wellness project, instead. But that is subject to change 🙂
I am working on AWESOME things in therapy. I’m really happy that my therapist and I worked things out.